Procrastination is so much harder to overcome for some reason. I don’t remember it being this hard before, but now every time I’m given a task, I feel like delaying it and it just keeps getting worse. I’ve taken a lot of the advice in the internet already, using journals todo list or planners, dopamine detox, and etc. but somehow I just keep going back to procrastination. I honestly can’t see myself succeeding. I’ve already lost the mindset and I can’t somehow get it back. It’s very difficult, I lack self control. I can’t just keep self-pitying and making excuses. I need to change but I feel lost. I realized that I was wrong, I want to tell myself that I can be independent but it doesn’t seem that way. I want time to stop because I need time to gain my motivation.
Every single time. I decide to be better and to arrange my schedule I just mess things up and go back to procrastinating. I always find a way to procrastinate, it’s insane. I somehow also feel dumber than when I started. Maybe I’m not trying hard enough to learn more, but I somehow understand the lessons less and my motivation to participate has slowly been fading despite my attempts to change that. I just want to be better.